Confessions

Many a time in life, people are often faced with setbacks.

Now, this one is my first. It's a huge put down to myself. The 1st ever toughest period i have ever been and yet to pull through. And don't you think that facing with setbacks just instigate the monster inside. To actually urge you to succumb to whatever crap you are facing. And eventually the monster will manipulate and take over without you realizing. Like me, and man was i really naive or stupid to be thinking that time would really do the job and heal whatever.

And i really hate doing that. It was all a feign. How i convinced and tell myself that i am leading a terrific time. Loserrr, running away from problem thinking it will solve and go by itself.

1/1/2010 people!
Resolutions???
Like it has always been, i've 1.

Manageable?

Hi,

The clock says 0530 hour now. Very soon dawn will breaks in.

Anyhow anyhow Christmas is around the corner, and i am passing it working. What a dreadful Christmas.

And shitxzx! Christmas Carol too, i wonder if i am able to catch it.

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Lately i find it 2X tedious than as usual to explain and express myself.

I'm losing myself. Shitssss.
Beat it.

Should or not.

Hey hi!

Currently, my hair's kind of lame and dangling(pun not intended) in between waves and being straight. Pondering still, if i should curl again or leave it be.

Hopefully, gratefully and miraculously by this Wednesday, back to bedok pleaseeee.

Marvellous or not.

Hi!

Awesome. Apparently i am here, at bedok, again. I bought my little twin cousins along with me to phy's. How persistent and insistent young kiddos nowadays, they are little imps. And because like what i had promised them earlier on. I have to mark my word. So anyway as my routine these days have been repetitive, and bounded. It drove me in a pretty solemn mood. Plus the weather went really mad, it's scorching hot! Both today and yest, total madness. And on top of that, the drilling and dust is driving me amok too. Noise and air pollution, grrrr, how one would yearn for to be surrounded by.

What a minus minus you could think of during the vacations. Dull and dryish my days went, i rot my days off, doing nothing really beneficial. I really hated that.

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On a side note there is a plus though i would like to point out, i enclose myself with plenty of books. They are one of best companions one could ever seek for. Really.

As for secondary school life, it's really over and done with. I did not attend grad day and prom night. It's all coming to a great unbelievably full stop, wonderful is it or otherwise i am clueless, however i am anticipating to what's coming next.

Good day people!:) CHRISTMAS HOHOHO.

Exhausted, but i like.

Hi!

I am at phy's. And i just had my hair trim. It look so much neater now. I LIKE. Apparently these days have been pretty much exhausting for me. I am busy with the moving of house, house chores and a lot a lot more. But i can't be bothered with that, because i like. I like having things at my hands. I can't stand boredom, i can't stand myself having nothing to do! But time seems much lesser every now and then to me. Time is really fleeing this time. So fast, that sometimes i thought when things has just begun to slow down in motion before my eyes, noise and commotion began to fade away and i have the time to myself, all ready to recharge, and there the next minute dawn starts to break in. And the hustle bustle comes to life again.

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In a good way i'm not going to let things bother and affect me anymore. No more. I am retrieving myself.

Yeah, jiaying is back!

Let the pictures do the talking.

The candy was so huge, and gigantic!

One could see the truth by heart.

Hi,

I guess the monsoon season is here. Hurray or boo.

Disturbed. Not too good.

I hope it goes away soon.:(

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I don't know what led to your current plight. Your current point of stand.

You know myself better than anyone else could, my fears, my craziness too well.

Too well that i tend to coax myself that thats not true. We are clone of one another.

But this time round, i won't hope for more.

I want peace. I am sick of it.